i break down and cry when You play those jazz chords
i'll never create something so beautiful
You didn't stick with it
i didn't stick with You either
so is it feasible for me to be one of two
including You
or are we just equal?

i say hi to Her
She says hi back
half of our conversations end like that
when they don't we seem to backtrack
i care too much

i call Her pretty
She's discussed
he calls Her pretty
he's exalted
i lose sleep over it
i'm exhausted
i care too much

You say You're thankful i was there for You
so we make plans to continue
but the next few days we don't follow through
it's a worldwide problem

it's something else at stake
we're not fake
there's no break
i'm just waiting for the day
when there's another way
to get close to You without resorting to parallel play

You care much
i think not
You got brain snot
i got a hunch
that You're not too hot on eating lunch
i care much to much about the small things
like Your blue eyes with the black wings
so i cry when i am not king
i care much too much

we only embark
when You are falling apart

i like it when You clench my arms in frustration
i like it when You're the source of inspiration
for my master class
in not being an ass
i gotta think fast
before i castrate my chances by staying silent

that'll make this the last time we talk in a while
i saw You running a mile
while bill nye was talking about protons and biology
i know that Your least favorite class is probably biology
but i'm a fan as long as it'll get You to talk to me

i couldn't tell You that i found your crazy eyes entrancing
i didn't tell You that i really loved our crazy dancing
and over the top jokes
You said that we're the same
the next day
we seized contact
only one of us doing so with no shame

i'll play in a band
i hope You like that
i'll gladly eat off of the graduated senior's placemat
i'll gladly mooch off of Your unconsciousness on Your bad days
and i'll savor every single moment during Your stays

however brief
bad business
no briefcase

i wanna nonviolently rip the makeup off Your face

and solve any remaining insecurities

and convince You that i enjoy Your absurdities

Your Facebook picture’s heavily edited
got it on reddit
did You even get it
i drew it in with some white marker
so when my phone didn't light up
my life seemed darker

You say we fit together like puzzle pieces
ain't that funny
i remember that time a girl asked me for an arm drawing of the playboy bunny
just like SAT prompts
at least i knew how to respond
however when You become distant
i become despondent and long-winded

the long silence of four years
and suddenly since there's no-one better
and no-one older
You're suddenly all ears?
my fear is anything You say to me in a claimed emotional state
is just some pity crafted to prevent some heartbreak

You care much
i think not
You got brain snot?
i got a hunch
that You're not too hot on eating lunch
i care much too much about the small things
like Your big eyes with the black wings
so i cry when i am not king

i care much too much
about imaginary problems that i hope You have

You care much
i think so
You show it differently
so i don't know
why i would convince myself that you don't
i care much too much about what's not true
(Your eyes aren't even fucking blue)
so i blew it
i guess that's part two

i've never been so angry at someone for an irrational reason
i'm pretty sure i hope Your new boyfriend doesn't last past the season
You switch on and off with no remorse for reasons that no-one can foresee
do You care for me?
do You feel any sense of loyalty?
i guess if you didn't
then that would work out
because i did not when we were younger
if only You let me speak the words that
i could make up for it with
You wrote me a nice birthday message for facebook on december fifth
a myth is us
a figment of imagination
ruled by lust for a better friendship

an unrealistic idea of companionship

You break down this time
and beg me to please stand by
i begrudgingly heed to Your request
maybe i can enjoy our mediocre discourse that never cuts through the surface
maybe our silly screamo songs don't need to serve a purpose